I finally made a new layout. I’d been procrastinating for months, and using other people’s layouts. I prefer using my own, y’know. Then again, the layout isn’t exactly done yet. Still a little more touch ups to go.

Anyhow, thanks everyone for the kind encouragements regarding my last post. :) I’m still trying to figure out what I really want in life. My long term goal is ultimately to move to the UK with my best friend, Reyna. However, before I do that, I need to get enough money. If I were to go for a degree, that would mean I’d take even longer to get enough money. Even so, I have no idea what sort of a degree I’d go for.

I’d love to go for a Creative Writing degree, but not only are there none here (only in English or English Literature), I read that it might not be right for everyone. I mean, not everyone gets published right after they graduate so that might be tough trying to get a steady income.

Gosh, so many things to think about, and not to mention, the economy is not doing as well in recent times. Sigh sigh, what am I to do?

Also, because I’m such a whore for Anberlin and loving it…

So much for being busy and running around, haha. I finally quit my “freelance” web design job after two months. They didn’t state down the proper conditions upon which they were hiring me. Instead of it being a proper freelance project, I was required to be there almost everyday, and I was supposedly being paid monthly. It was ridiculous. Not only that, while my friend and her partner were getting a combined amount of S$2.5k per month for designing the company’s collaterals, I am only getting S$800 per month for modifying and coding the website as well as providing various back end support. I had to try so hard to refrain from yelling that I was not a web programmer or web administrator, I was the web designer.

It’s very unfair to me, and I had half a mind to argue for my fair share (which should be a lot more than S$2.5k) but didn’t. Probably because I didn’t want any bad feelings, I don’t know. The S$1.6k (for both months) was supposed to have been transferred into my bank account last Thursday, but she only got my account number on Friday. Till today, I still have not seen a single cent for my hard work. If it’s not in my bank account by tomorrow, I’m going down on Friday to have a bitch fit.

Besides that, I still have a part time job. It doesn’t pay much but it’s the least I can do at the moment. I still have not decided if I want to take up a degree course which I’m interested in or to work and get some experience first… I’m so fed up with thinking about it that I’ve stopped. :x That doesn’t please my parents, they want to know what my next step in life would be and I have no answer for them. :/

What about you, do you know what you want to do for the rest of your life? If so, how are you so certain that it’s really what you would stick to for forever?

No, no marriage happened. What did, is that September’s here! :D And Dougie Poynter’s on the month of September on my McFly calendar. ;D I haven’t been updating much, and I’m sorry. Too many things happening in a period of time can make a girl run around like a mad woman.

I’ve gone to more interviews, while turning down a job offer as an instructor, because I didn’t really want to be tied down to the job for 15 months. I’m not exactly sure what I want, to be honest. Ideally, I would like to do something that not only I enjoy and brings satisfaction, but also earns good money. Then again, who doesn’t, huh? I’m not entirely sure I want to do design as a career. What started out as a hobby, turned out to be something I hated to do during college. It’s such a weird thing.

I guess I’ll just have to take time to figure out what it is that I want in life. :/ Wish me luck!

[Edit - 2 Sept 08] I finally have a new proper wallet! :D If you can’t read it, it says “And he was like, blah blah blah. And I was like, blah blah blah. And then I was like, NO. And there was complete silence for one full minute and then he was like, blah blah blah.” xD

Also, don’t you just hate it when people who are um, larger in size compared to you (no offence), sit next to you on the bus, and squish you to the side? I mean, for fuck’s sake… I was on the way home from work today, peak hour nonetheless, and I sat at a window seat.

A lady who is almost twice my size, comes and sits beside me, really close. So I’m thinking, okay, fine. Maybe she’ll gradually move a little away, seeing as my arm is squished against hers, but no! She doesn’t, so I decide to be a little nice, and move as close to the window as I can, practically squishing myself against it, so my other arm has a little more room to y’know, be comfortable.

Annoyingly enough, she takes it as a hint to squish me even further in! Like, “Oh, how nice of her to make more space for me!” Idiot. No, seriously. Could she not tell that I was uncomfortable!? Stop taking up MY SIDE of the seat! Argh! >_> [/Edit]