Four days ago, I received a text from a colleague that a fellow colleague’s dad had just passed away. Three days ago, I attended the funeral. I learnt that he had been diagnosed with cancer two years ago, and had actually been cleared of it when complications started arising recently. I started fretting over it.

October 2008, my mother was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. Everything happened so fast after that. She underwent surgery in November and started chemo early 2009. It was a tough period for the family, especially my dad. He lost a lot of weight. I was praying so hard throughout the entire time, and right now, mum’s doing fine. She’s still going back to the hospital every now and then to have injections for her immune system, but she’s gone back to her normal lifestyle and I cannot be more thankful.

We were in and out of the hospital a lot, because just before all this happened, my grandmother had a bad fall, and dislocated her hip. She underwent a successful surgery. Mum then had her surgery while gran was recuperating. I’ve never been happier to stop having visits to the hospital.

While this recent situation has daunted me, I can only continue praying for her wellbeing and trust that God will keep her healthy. It has also made me realise how thankful I actually am for the parentals. I haven’t actually been a model daughter, so this year, I’m going to try and change that. Family is something that can’t be replaced, so please don’t take yours for granted. :)

Unbelievable, how fast 2009 came and went. The past year has been full of ups and downs, much like a rollercoaster ride. To be honest, I don’t really remember much of the first half of 2009; probably because most of the downs came from there.

God was kind enough to answer most of my prayers in 2009, so I’m really thankful for that. Praying really helped me through last year.

With chemo all done, Mum’s pretty much back to her normal self. :) Pray the cancer doesn’t come back and she stays healthy.

As for work, it’s been crazy. My first full-time job after graduation; I shouldn’t be complaining. It’s a good stepping stone, even if the hours are ridiculous. I’m literally overworked and underpaid, no exaggeration.

The second half of 2009 was really the highlight of the entire year, because I got to go back to church after a really long absence; the result of a really random friendship. :3 Thank God for drawing me back to Him.

For 2010, I have quite a bit more expectations than I did last year.
Note: Expectations aren’t the same as resolutions.

I’d like to:

• Be a better Christian, to grow more spiritually and learn to listen more to God. I need to be more in tune with Him instead, and absorb less from my surroundings, because He matters most.
  Pastor’s vision for me was an antenna that was facing downwards instead of up. He said I should not be too concerned about things of this earth and to be more in tune with God. It made me think of the time when God showed me this verse:

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
- Matthew 6:25

• Have a stronger family bond. After secondary school, I’ve really drifted away from my family, and I don’t even know why. I’m completely distant from them and I don’t tell them as much as I did when I was younger. I’d love to be close to them once again.
• Be an inspiration and a living testimony to my family, so that one day, they would join me in church to worship God. :)
• Take up something active! If only I could get someone to go for hip hop dance classes with me. :p
• Do more creative things to boost my portfolio.
• Take care of my health better; eat better and live positively.

That’s pretty much all I can think of for now. The first day of the new year is coming to a close. With that, I bid 2009 goodbye. May the new year bring good things to everyone. :) God bless!

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