Not only am I not interested in a relationship right now, I don’t have time for one, not to mention not having time to go out and meet one. If it’s in God’s plans for me to have one now, I would’ve already have/met one, lol. Boys or no boys, my life is going good anyway. It’s all in His plans, so I’ll just wait patiently. :)

Oh, and Happy Independence Day to all US friends!

Only – CD Promotion Tours
Some may know that my church produced a CD (all self-written by talented church members :D), of which I had helped design the cover and sleeve. We’ve been having tours since the beginning of Jan and it’s been really fun! Check out the CD! Each CD only costs S$15 and proceeds go to the Baptist Building Fund so you know it’s for a good cause! More information can be found at the website. :)

Boys Like Girls Concert @ Compass Ballroom, Resorts World (28 Jan)
Absolutely glad I decided to go because it was so much fun and they put up a great performance! Resorts World also looked pretty awesome. :D Wasn’t too impressed with the teenies around me and Lorraine though. You should’ve heard their conversation and seen the way this girl was acting around her boyfriend. Icky. He didn’t seem too responsive either, lol!

Maternal Grandmother’s Death (23 Feb)
I also went through a really tough time when my grandmother passed away just a week after I saw her. I was in shock and denial. My brain knew not how to deal with it. Even now, looking back on the wake and funeral, it seems like an out-of-body experience. Throughout the entire wake, and then seeing my grandmother go into the incinerator was surreal. The entire experience was/is surreal. I know that my grandmother is dead, but at times I still think as though she is alive. Such as, when I have a boyfriend, I could bring him over to introduce to her. I will never get that privilege and it upsets me. I also regret those times that I decided not to go visit her just because I was lazy. I’m glad that she at least got to drink the really nice Japanese apple juice that I bought for her during CNY. I hope she knew how much I love her, so much so that I, out of my love/respect for her and Mum, participated in a tiny part of the Buddhist ritual that was against my faith. May God forgive me. When Faith (colleague) came, she told me something I’d never forget: “Stand strong. There’s only one pair of eyes to please.” and I’m ever so thankful for that. :)

Department Weekend Chalet (19 – 21 Mar)
Had a good time at the chalet, which served as a farewell to Boss as he had been transferred to another department. :( Stayed for 3D2N! Also tried out bowling with colleagues and Boss. Even though I pretty much suck at it the first round (gutter ball queen, haha), it was so much fun. :D The second round proved much better. :p I’m so going to get Dad to bowl with me, him being all experienced and stuff. He used to take part in his ex-company’s bowling tournaments, haha! Got his own bowling ball and all. I told Dad and he said we’d go together one day! I’ll try not to gutter ball as much. :p

Subway’s Clash of the Titans Promo
I won a pair of tickets to Clash of the Titans 3D private screening just by eating Subway and submitting the promo card code online! I was so amazed when I got the text congratulating me, because that Monday, I’d decided not to eat with my colleagues and went to get Subway instead! Thank God for blessing me with this. :D I’ve invited Dad to join me and he agreed! Life is good.

ONE. – Baptist Youth Rally (27 Mar)
Went to my first Youth Rally and as we were having P&W, I started crying as we sang “I’ll never know how much it costs, to see my sin upon that cross.” and I was looking up at the cross. It was such a sudden raw mixed emotion and I couldn’t control it. I’ve never experienced it to that extent before and it reaffirmed me of my love for God and my desire to become a better person than I was before (yeah, I wasn’t a very nice person :p). I am thankful every day for every little thing that He provides me with, because I know that what He gives, He can also take away.

Besides those highlighted events, work is as the same so nothing much to tell about that. I’m also finally able to honestly say that I love and enjoy life. :D Even if something really crappy happens, it always works out. I give all the credit to God and am extremely thankful for His blessings. Praise the Lord!

God was kind enough to answer most of my prayers in 2009, so I’m really thankful for that. Praying really helped me through last year.

With chemo all done, Mum’s pretty much back to her normal self. :) Pray the cancer doesn’t come back and she stays healthy.

As for work, it’s been crazy. My first full-time job after graduation; I shouldn’t be complaining. It’s a good stepping stone, even if the hours are ridiculous. I’m literally overworked and underpaid, no exaggeration.

The second half of 2009 was really the highlight of the entire year, because I got to go back to church after a really long absence; the result of a really random friendship. :3 Thank God for drawing me back to Him.

For 2010, I have quite a bit more expectations than I did last year.
Note: Expectations aren’t the same as resolutions.

I’d like to:

• Be a better Christian, to grow more spiritually and learn to listen more to God. I need to be more in tune with Him instead, and absorb less from my surroundings, because He matters most.
  Pastor’s vision for me was an antenna that was facing downwards instead of up. He said I should not be too concerned about things of this earth and to be more in tune with God. It made me think of the time when God showed me this verse:

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
- Matthew 6:25

• Have a stronger family bond. After secondary school, I’ve really drifted away from my family, and I don’t even know why. I’m completely distant from them and I don’t tell them as much as I did when I was younger. I’d love to be close to them once again.
• Be an inspiration and a living testimony to my family, so that one day, they would join me in church to worship God. :)
• Take up something active! If only I could get someone to go for hip hop dance classes with me. :p
• Do more creative things to boost my portfolio.
• Take care of my health better; eat better and live positively.

That’s pretty much all I can think of for now. The first day of the new year is coming to a close. With that, I bid 2009 goodbye. May the new year bring good things to everyone. :) God bless!