I’ve opened and put up my McFly 2009 calendar. :3 I’m not flipping through it this year because I want to be surprised. xD

I’m not making any resolutions this year. I’m just going to make promises to myself that I’d better keep. :p

Any big plans for the new year?

Presents wise, some awesome ones, some meh ones, but I like the family time the most. :3

I had to work from 8am till 1.30am the next day yesterday, and missed having dinner with my relatives who were leaving this morning (they live in Malaysia). :( At least Eve was awesome, and I’ll hopefully be seeing them again soon.

Hope everyone’s enjoying their holidays. :)

I also got my Anberlin LE package today! It’s awesome as! :D I was really happy when I saw it on the table. ^^ Can’t wait for the rest of my orders to start arriving. Teehee! :p

I should have gone to bed about an hour ago, but Vista and iTunes (with the iPod plugged in)? They aren’t best friends, so I’ve been waiting around for my laptop to stop hanging on me. It finally did for a while, but it occasionally likes to act up. Like when I’m typing this out! >_>;;

Anyhow, Christmas is in two weeks! Can anyone believe that!? Time passes way too fast! D: So this year, instead of waiting around to be disappointed by the presents that my extended family gives me, I’ve gone and splurged on things I really really like and have been waiting to get. :D It’s not that I don’t appreciate the gesture, I do. It’s just, there’s only so many years in a row that you want to get towel sets, y’know?

Here’s what I got myself xD:

• Anberlin LE package
• McFly Children In Need singles (1 2) + 2009 Calendar
• 3 TWLOHA shirts (1 2 3) + dog tag
• LPU 8 Premier Pass

I’ve completely spent way too much, and I know that, but hey! It’s Christmas! The only time I actually allow myself to buy that much stuff. xD I’m also going to be spending a lot trying to get stuff to my friends around the world. :D Did you guys get anything for yourselves or your loved ones?

Regarding my last post, Mum has to go for chemo. I’m not sure when she starts yet, but I was thinking maybe we could both go shop for wigs first. :3

Update [December 5th 2008]: I GOT THE JOB! :DDD The pay may be low, but I’m just going to take this as a learning experience since it’s going to be my first full time job. :)

I’m so going along. I want to be active in this whole journey to support her. I don’t usually put my feelings into words when it comes to family, but in this way, I could show her how I feel. :)

Just a week ago, after numerous tests, it was finally confirmed that she has stage 2 breast cancer. It wasn’t exactly a shock, but it wasn’t an easy news to take as well. There’s always the “Why me?” question, but then again, breast cancer in women isn’t exactly a low statistic. Not to mention, me and my sister will therefore have a higher risk of having it too. Hence, we have all been changing our diets. Not just because of Mum, but also for the sake of being healthier.

Later in the morning, my mother will be undergoing the surgery to remove that offending lump, as well as a reconstructive surgery. All in all, it will be about 6 hours long. I have been praying a lot lately, for the surgery to go well, and for her to have a speedy recovery. I’m hoping that you, my dear readers, would please do the same too. It hasn’t been an easy few weeks for my Mum (and for us to see her upset), so it would mean a lot to me. Thank you. <3

Update #1 [November 19th 2008]: Mum’s surgery went well, today’s the third day since. She’s pretty torn up, though she doesn’t usually show it, but everyone’s been really supportive. Paternal and maternal relatives have been coming to visit her so I hope she feels better. I’m bringing over two small bibles I found in the cupboards for her later; the other bibles we have are way too big. One for her and one for me to read with her to give her more strength and courage. :) For those who don’t pray, please keep her in your thoughts. <3

YAYBAMA!

There isn’t really much to tell, except my maternal grandmother had a bad fall last week and was admitted into the hospital. She had her surgery earlier this week and is well on her way to recovery. :D She’s just started physiotherapy two days ago, so hopefully she’ll be back on her feet soon. It’s a tad worrying, because she’s 89, and that’s really old. Fingers crossed though! I prayed a lot for her surgery and that went well, so more prayers for a fast recovery! :D

In regards to the post title, I’ve pretty much been working out almost everyday, over the past week or so. I’m hoping to continue this for hopefully the rest of my life. xD I used to just do really simple stuff like once a week, but now I’m in full action. :D Totally need to get in shape for Christmas, lmao.

P.S. I went Pink for October! :D

Anyhow, thanks everyone for the kind encouragements regarding my last post. :) I’m still trying to figure out what I really want in life. My long term goal is ultimately to move to the UK with my best friend, Reyna. However, before I do that, I need to get enough money. If I were to go for a degree, that would mean I’d take even longer to get enough money. Even so, I have no idea what sort of a degree I’d go for.

I’d love to go for a Creative Writing degree, but not only are there none here (only in English or English Literature), I read that it might not be right for everyone. I mean, not everyone gets published right after they graduate so that might be tough trying to get a steady income.

Gosh, so many things to think about, and not to mention, the economy is not doing as well in recent times. Sigh sigh, what am I to do?

Also, because I’m such a whore for Anberlin and loving it…

It’s very unfair to me, and I had half a mind to argue for my fair share (which should be a lot more than S$2.5k) but didn’t. Probably because I didn’t want any bad feelings, I don’t know. The S$1.6k (for both months) was supposed to have been transferred into my bank account last Thursday, but she only got my account number on Friday. Till today, I still have not seen a single cent for my hard work. If it’s not in my bank account by tomorrow, I’m going down on Friday to have a bitch fit.

Besides that, I still have a part time job. It doesn’t pay much but it’s the least I can do at the moment. I still have not decided if I want to take up a degree course which I’m interested in or to work and get some experience first… I’m so fed up with thinking about it that I’ve stopped. :x That doesn’t please my parents, they want to know what my next step in life would be and I have no answer for them. :/

What about you, do you know what you want to do for the rest of your life? If so, how are you so certain that it’s really what you would stick to for forever?

I’ve gone to more interviews, while turning down a job offer as an instructor, because I didn’t really want to be tied down to the job for 15 months. I’m not exactly sure what I want, to be honest. Ideally, I would like to do something that not only I enjoy and brings satisfaction, but also earns good money. Then again, who doesn’t, huh? I’m not entirely sure I want to do design as a career. What started out as a hobby, turned out to be something I hated to do during college. It’s such a weird thing.

I guess I’ll just have to take time to figure out what it is that I want in life. :/ Wish me luck!

[Edit - 2 Sept 08] I finally have a new proper wallet! :D If you can’t read it, it says “And he was like, blah blah blah. And I was like, blah blah blah. And then I was like, NO. And there was complete silence for one full minute and then he was like, blah blah blah.” xD

Also, don’t you just hate it when people who are um, larger in size compared to you (no offence), sit next to you on the bus, and squish you to the side? I mean, for fuck’s sake… I was on the way home from work today, peak hour nonetheless, and I sat at a window seat.

A lady who is almost twice my size, comes and sits beside me, really close. So I’m thinking, okay, fine. Maybe she’ll gradually move a little away, seeing as my arm is squished against hers, but no! She doesn’t, so I decide to be a little nice, and move as close to the window as I can, practically squishing myself against it, so my other arm has a little more room to y’know, be comfortable.

Annoyingly enough, she takes it as a hint to squish me even further in! Like, “Oh, how nice of her to make more space for me!” Idiot. No, seriously. Could she not tell that I was uncomfortable!? Stop taking up MY SIDE of the seat! Argh! >_> [/Edit]

Singapore’s National Day
As you can tell from the title of the post, it’s Singapore’s birthday once again. :) Man, how time flies. This year is different though, my family finally won tickets to see the National Day Parade. :D Okay, I’m not overly patriotic, but hey, it’s nice to see it live on the actual day. My parents are well excited, haha. It’s cute. :)

Edit (10 Aug 08): The Parade was awesome! I really loved the fireworks. <3

Current Jobs
It’s great to be able to get a breather from all this work related stress lately. My freelancing web design job at the bar could be going better, but I’ve been stressing out over stuff that I should be doing by a certain deadline, and stuff that I’ve been asked to do, even though it’s not my job to. :/ So naturally I wasn’t too happy about it. Boss says everything will be sorted out on Monday, and to not worry. So this weekend, I’m just going to relax! As for my part time job, it’s going pretty alright. I quite enjoy talking to my colleague while we’re free. They’re rather nice people. :)

Jobs - The Waiting
I’m sure most of us know the feeling of waiting for replies from companies that you’ve sent your resumes to, hoping they’d get back to you asap. Right after I graduated from art college, I didn’t look for a job. I wanted to relax at home, and just not do anything for a while. I guess I needed to find myself, and figure out who I really am, and what I want to do as a career and for the rest of my life.

However, mother got to nagging and shit. SO, I applied all over and stuff, and do what everyone does, wait. And I wait, and I wait… yet no replies. That’s fine, I assume they already have the position filled and applied to more jobs! This is where trouble starts… A week later, every one starts calling back, requesting an interview. I decided to keep my options open and just go to all the interviews. That’s good, right? Yes.

That’s when in the mist of it all, my friend asked if I want to do web designing, as mentioned in the last post. At this point in time, I’m juggling two jobs. Never thought that’d happen, but I am! One of the people at the bar was impressed with the way I handled and got things done, and wondered how much I was looking for if they wanted to hire me, so I told him and he said he’d see what he could do, and in the mean time, to not look for anymore jobs and such.

Jobs Dilemma - Oh Shit, Oh Shit!
This is where the trouble escalates, I went to an interview earlier this week for a job that teaches young kids aged 3 months to 5 years old. They called back today, asking if I was still interested in the job. Since I haven’t gotten a full time job yet, I said yes, while keeping in mind what I’d been told before about not looking for more jobs. They wanted me to go in on Wednesday as a part timer, before the second interview, and after that, I could sign the contract.

Now, I’m all caught up, having dug my own grave here. By this Wednesday, I’d be juggling three jobs. Good going, Marsh. Good going…

Thank You! <3
…if you read all the way down, thank you so much. I know how annoying it is to arrive at a blog with a super long entry, haha. I really do appreciate it though. :)

And then early this week, I’d been called by my friend, asking if I wanted to do web design for the bar at which she is doing graphic design for. I agreed, and have been going there daily for the entire day, doing their site. I can’t claim the design as mine (the previous designer was sacked for taking too long), but I coded it and sorts.

It’s really fun working at a bar, haha. They’re still in renovation state, but there was a little party for close friends of the boss/manager and stuff on the first of four comedy nights they had, just as a preview to how the place looks at the moment. I only had two beers and a glass of vodka and red bull, but I got a little tipsy. xD I felt so silly! Well, the bar’s going to look great once they’re done, I just know, haha. I’m definitely going to be at the soft launch. :D

On the second day that I was doing the web design, I got a call saying I was selected for a part time job as an Attractions Host at Sentosa, and would start on Tuesday. I accepted it, since I needed something else to do whilst still waiting to get a full time job. Plus, during the interview, he’d said if I found a full time job, all I needed to do was to give them two weeks notice. That was easy enough to handle. Besides, I’m sure it would be a fun experience. :D